I'm Broken Because of Missing You (Too Much)

I'm broken.

Alone. 

And all I feel is missing you...

I miss all of our habits like we used to be. 

And lately, I was just losing it, though I missed for it so much. 

I feel like hungry, thirsty, of all our conversation when I could tell all my feeling and thinking to you.

But now I just can't......

Nude Bohemian Girl

Nude Bohemian Girl by oshin on polyvore.com

When I Feel Weak, I Know I Have You

Thursday nite, I had a dinner with the girls, bff, celebrating Valentine. Ah, no, no. Actually it was only a coincidence that we met and had dinner together at Grand Indonesia. I was so starving that is why I didn't take too long time to choose. Which I think it was a bad choice of menu I had yesterday. But.. it's okay, that is not the point of this blog entry.

busy with their own gadget :D

the dinner at japanese resto

I enjoyed the powwow with these two litlle girls with me LOL (*kidding gals) as they have the similar job they had. Then I became the one who did a very boring different job.
Yesterday, we all wore the different style but the same tone of color : Black. Basic on this, I called it Black Valentine Dinner :D
After that, we had visit some counters and groceries to buy some stuff. (I didn't). Afterall, it is fun to have long conversation. Though it was not about one of us, I learned one important thing, that I will write in the different theme later. Heard of it, I learned to thankful of what I have recently. In every condition.
Time to go home. Actually I doubted I will reach the train station in time. Because it was hard to find metro mini and later I need to change with mikrolet. I did passed the 10 pm train. The last time I went home late, the train to catch up home is 11 pm. But right now they change it to 11.30 pm.
As I arrived the train station at 10 pm, means I need to wait 1,5 hours there. I honestly a bit scared because I met a crazy freak man capturing myself by his phone. I directly leave the area and keep moving, searching for another women to make me feel safe.

desolate train station

Fortunately, after several minutes, they came one by one, until about five women total, started from St. Tanah Abang. The thing is, one and half hour is tooo long for me to wait. As I usually sleep at 10.30 pm, this time I need to wait til 11.30 pm the train to leave the station and need about 40 minutes to reach the destination station, and another 10 minutes to reach home.
You keep asking about my condition. I told you I don't know why I feel weak that time, I was wondering about to have a personal driver and bla bla bla. It actually just to calm myself down. But I don't know why suddenly I really feel that I need someone to accompany me in every time I got a critical condition like that. Well my mind keep struggling, about I need to be strong everytime I need to face this thing alone. I was so sleepy waiting and almost definetely close my eyes of waiting. But finally the train came to the station very early, about 11 pm. See? I don't understand why they make it late on schedule than before. After I hung up the phone from you, I slept even before the train leave the station. I couldn't handle my eyes, gosh.
From this experience... Which I many times had it since we were each other far away, I always knows that I still need to make myself stronger and make it done well, without complaining too much. I didn't. And within the time, I were always know that you always worry about me, as u told me. Then I always know, everytime I feel weak, I know your pray always with me, as mine also with yours everytime. I know I have you. Always have you. And I hope it will be happen in my entire life. *God please make it true, thanks God^^*
   

I Love Rainy Day

I Love Rainy Day by oshin featuring knit hats

Rainy Day in Bogor

Once upon a time, there was a couple who want to spend a time together around the town. But they was so bored with the capital city. Then they had a plan to go to the Rain City, to catch up some moments and spend weekend together.

Ha! Kidding... It seems that I have a talent to be a storyteller, don't I ?

I should tell the world about this great feeling I have inside. Though it was just a simple-cheap-short trip to Bogor, but I had a great time with lovely one. That Saturday morning we decided to go to the Presidential Palace, Kebun Raya and to have a great-taste-yamin noodle.
So we started the day by preparing all we need to reach the city for about 1,5 hours journey by the motorcycle. It was a sunny day, although it was not really pleasant to pass all those holes on the street. It was awful. After we reach MT Haryono Street, the sky was so cloudy. And exactly when we reached Sudirman Street, it started to rain. Only after 10 minutes, the rain getting heavy and we stop the journey. Waiting for the rain while searching places we want to visit on the digital maps.

Actually the Presidential Palace is only about five minutes from there, we passed it without taking picture, but I was happy enough to see those deers from outside. Because the rain wasn't exactly stop, we decided to have lunch first at Yung Bangka Es, it is exactly across the PLN Office and in front of Bogor Train Station.
Only about 20 meters before we arrived, the rain became heavy again. Rushy, rushy, we need to be there before we got all of our outfit wet. And thank God everything was under control. After we arrived there, we directly order our lunch.
We ordered the same menu : It was Mi Yamin komplit with Es Teler for both of us. Expecially because we got a super delicious broth to warm our stomach.
The noodle got a superb texture and also the chicken strewment was sooo delicious. They separated in a different bowl. In another bowl we got meatballs, tofu and dumplings, with some green vegetable. The taste of savory chicken broth, and smell of celery arouse my appetite. Plus, the most delicious Es Teler we had, included avocado, coconut and jackfruit completed with brown sugar. And our tummy was so happy :)))
After that, actually we had plan to visit Kebun Raya, but the rain was terrible. We had stop and take shelter in the nearest place. It was an old-building of a tailor. And we had long conversation there, waiting for the rain to stop.
But because of the rain wasn't stop at all, we cancelled to visit Kebun Raya and directly went home in the middle of the rain. Both of us got wet after 2 hours journey to reach home. But we were happy afterall. Rainy Day in Bogor was a meaningful short trip for us. It doesn't matter where we go, as long as we went there together, it all would be always fun and happy.  

Conversation at The Beatles Nite

       Friday nite, I was just inform that we would not having trip to Puncak on Saturday. Because you need to do many things at home for your sister's wedding about two weeks from now. I was upset. I really wanna have a short trip (at least), with you before you go back to your city. That nite, you called me but seems that it didn't encourage me at all about my expectation of the trip. I asked you to come the next day.

       Saturday afternoon, you came to my place. With smile as usual. You know I can't handle it, I can't even get mad or upset to you everytime I see your smile. And you brought me a white flower with chocolate. It's kind of old school compliment. But I like it. I always love what you did to bring back my smile.  Eventhough finally I shared you the chocolate, it will always fun to share you anything I have.

After that, we had dinner with our fav menu. Great atmosphere and sofa, like I want to have a long conversation without end. But some people waiting for us to leave because they wanted to sit at the same spot as ours. Poor them, lol, I got the table first and the table next to us there was a family with five members, though we sat on the table for the same amount of customers. But it's okay, I don't care :D

       After dinner, apparently there was a live music in the main stage of that area. It was BEATLES NITE. Wow, interesting and so lucky. I think it was a great timing. We sat on the long wood chair and enjoyed every song they sang. I layed on my head upon your shoulder, like some other couple did. But funny thing is, they who did the same thing as we did, are oldies... What a joke. 

      Nah, nah.. I mean.. it seems that our chemistry were similar to them who had a long journey of life together. That beautiful nite took us to long conversation about our own dream wedding. Mine, in my mind, there will be a lake and swimming pool, where people we love will feel happy as me and my partner. I will sing for them a special song for my special person. A very intimate small party. And yours, you had think about a place out of town, with fresh air and only people you and your partner know will attend the party. 

      And after this day... I am waiting for the day, that the conversation will be a discussion. About OUR big event in our life. And after that day... I will waiting for the day, that the discussion becoming  real event. Someday...